I don't know but it seems to dawn on me that I am a very careless person. I tend to lose stuffs so many times, oh just so effortless to lose it! I am unsure how many times I lose my house keys. Pissed. So other day, I decided to go Sheng Shiong at 3 in the morning(gile) to buy baking ingredients. I remember going out with my keys but by the time i reach home, my keys were gone! I had the feeling that maybe I carried too many stuffs, and it slipped.

I did not lock the door but I locked the gate. So I had no chance of even going in. I didn't bother calling my family members because cfm kena scolding hahahah ya la go sheng shiong some more. Then I remembered there were keys behind the door. After countless of tries, I managed to fish the keys out of the hook. I feel like some sort of burglar with good house break in skills lol. I think I really had enough of being stuck outside my house. I remembered being stuck outside my house with nearly five hours and I did my school notes. It was very productive I must say. I am very proud huhuhuhu.

School is in a week's time and I can already feel the pressure to complete my assignments. Mostly on design and build. Thank you AsAs for helping me with autocad! :) Appreciate it so much. Ever since the fasting month, I believe my brain cells have been depleting because I couldn't think properly.

QUESTIONS ABOUT MYSELF COS IM BORED...

1. What are your nicknames? What do you prefer to be called?

Qy, Qyqy, Syiqin, Syiq, Iqin, Qin. Any of that but never Asyiqin because it's too formal LOL

2. What books on your shelf are begging to be read?

The dictionary. I miss reading the dictionary.

3. How often do you doodle? What do your doodles look like?

I don't doodle already, outgrown from that habit. Usually ill draw a coconut tree, waves, a sun, birds soaring in the sky...............chicken. I mean chicken is an essential to all doodles. 

4. What do you do if you can’t sleep at night? Do you count sheep? Toss and Turn? Try to get up and do something productive?

I will blog hahahaha, or do search on something on Pinterest till I get bored!

5. How many days could you last in solitary confinement? How would you do it?

3 days. I think I can go crazy!!!! Just put me at home for three days, I will bore myself to death. Literally!

6. Do you save old greeting cards and letters? Throw them away?

I saved my old raya cards that people used to send me when I was little. I used to be so excited to write to them too! :( I WISH THAT COULD HAPPEN, STILL!

7. Who is the biggest pack rat you know?

APE ITU. Is it hood language I've yet to learn.........hmm.

8. When making an entrance in to a party, do you make your presence known? Do you slip in and look for someone you know? Do you sneak in quietly and find a safe spot to roost?

DANG, I MAKE SURE PPL KNOW IM COMING. Make my entrance from the helipad, flying fox from the helicopter before it even descend. Hop onto my carriage where four hot dudes are carrying me like a queen. Camels everywhere. Diamond encrusted rainbow carpet for my arrival cos rainbow is the new red. They shower me Fanta grape and there's fireworks in the sky saying, "SYIQIN IS HERE"

9. What is your strongest sense? If you had to give one up, which would it be?

I love my sense of humor most definitely. *wink* Give up my sense of carelessness. *wink*

10. How many times a day do you look at yourself in the mirror?

only to see if there's taik mata.

11. What is the strangest thing you believed as a child?

That you'll get children once you put a ring on your finger after you've gotten married. Im so innocent.

12. What is one guilty pleasure you enjoy too much to give up?

4FINGERS CHICKEN. AINT LIVING W/O IT.

13. Who performs the most random acts of kindness out of everyone you know?

Kak Azza <3

14. How often do you read the newspaper? Which paper? Which sections?

Not so often. ST's lifestyle. Comics. HAHAHAHAH 

15. Which animals scare you most? Why?

I want to say sharks. But im pretty sure its the male gender now.

16. Are you more likely to avoid conflict or engage it head-on?

It depends on the situation.

17. What was the most recent compliment you’ve received and savoured?

The essence of youth glows throughout my face. Savoured. Forever. Alhamdullilah. Forever.

18. What is something about yourself that you hope will change, but probably never will?

Eat less, drink water more. Eat > Drink water.

19. Are you a creature of habit? Explain.

I am hooman.

20. Are you high maintenance? Explain.

NO! 

21. When was the last time you really pushed yourself to your physical limits?

Just now, I berak. I want to let it all out. So i push and push, it's tiring man.

22. Do you have a whole lot of acquaintances or just a few very close friends? Why?

A fair share of both.

23. Are you more inclined to “build your own empire” or unleash the potential of others?

I am somewhat between Oprah and Beyonce. I do both. 

24. What’s a strange occurrence you’ve experienced but have never (or rarely) shared with anyone?

AHHH HUH! TRICK QUESTION. I see you.

25. What do you think about more than anything else?

Like in a parallel universe, we could just give away pimples and body scars discreetly to people we don't like because we don't need that kind of negativity in out life.

errrrr

May Peace Be Upon You.

Trying the default font instead of the Arial font I usually use just to see if it's nice. Very tiring day because went to Geylang with Shereen and some of my secondary juniors. Was not as chatty because I was super hungry and the crowd just now was cray cray at some areas of Geylang that I suggested that we need rafia strings to tie onto each other so neither of us will get lost huhuhu! The food stalls were in abundance, I think more than those who are selling clothes. Was super stoked because I get to eat my cut up paprika chicken which was a resemblance to the XXL chicken from the taiwan shop you can get here in sg or the halal ones at Malaysia hehehehe i told you chicken is life!

Not only that, Shereen and I bought this $3 ice ball which was a thirst quencher! I couldn't imagine how a blob of circular ice with syrup flavorings altogether would taste so so so so so so so so so so so so so so dang goooooddddd :P 

I didn't know hanging curtains the old school way could be so tiring. You have to remove and insert hooks onto the curtains and hang them properly. The curtains are so heavy and I swear I thought I popped a bone by the time I rested. 

Hook you insert into a curtain...... There are like idk 20 hooks altogether! Or more. Crazy.

The curtains are hooked into this. You need precision I tell you ceh!

I remembered yelling my lungs out when I saw a gecko. I think the gecko also low key yelled and terkejot cos it saw an ugly human like dannnngggg why you ugly, human? But i was glad it wasn't a cockroach because that would be a whole new level of geli lol.

So earlier on while I waited for Shereen, I saw a man whom I assumed had "Craniectomy" was pacing carefully around the block just now. I just felt calm in a way that he seemed happy that he had the chance to exercise. May Allah bless him with good health. Amin.

On a random note, I researched on belly buttons. Belly button, a.k.a navel, where your umbilical cord is cut when you were a baby, So before you start judging me, saying that I am weird for even researching about belly buttons. Sekejap bbl pasal ni la, pasal tu la tsk hahaha. Whatever, I'll just proceed. I am quite unsure what show I watched but I believe some people think that outies are ugly. So what is an outie belly button if you wonder.......

OUTIE! Look at that cinnamon roll/croissant. It does look
like one right? HAHAHAHAHHA! Eveything I look at is food. Tsk Qy tskkkk,

"Outies usually occur when more of the umbilical cord is left when it's cut, leading to more skin left over once it dries out."

Most of us are innies. Honestly, I don't look think an outie is ugly. I think all belly buttons are beautiful. On the positive side, an outie looks like a cinnamon roll. So fret not, outies! 

Wait for it.....

Look at that! MASTERPIECE! CINNAMON ROLL!!!!!!! YUMS!

So let my research go deeper hor....

If you stare at it long enough actually, it looks like they have their life on their own. :/ Weird uhh.

SO WHICH ONE IS YOURS?

Mine looks like neither any of them lol. I don't know but I am starting to feel like every navel is made different. Like a thumbprint. Because mine looks nothing like that. N O T H I N G! If you detest your belly button so much, you can actually undergo surgery for it. Idky would you, SERIOUSLY! I mean if you often wear crop tops then maybe la got definite reason to go but seriously guys. It is just a belly button. You could use the money to buy shoes or deng deng! Like srsly. Deng deng is $10 for 200g mind you! How costly is that. Tkde any beverage comes with that. $10!!!! Or just do better things with the money than to undergo a belly button surgery. Cmon guys!!!! The surgery is called umbilicoplasty.

In the 1960s, censors wouldn't let women show their belly buttons on TV. (HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!)

Belly button lint comes from our clothes. Men tend to have more because it gets caught in their belly hairs. (EEE korang please eh kaum lelaki, tolong eh korang. Clean!)

I used to keep food inside my belly button when I was a toddler! Lol! I thought that was the purpose of it. To hide away your M&Ms because why? Because I don't share food. If I do, you must be somebody hahahahhaa

Morning anws, x

one more time

I don't know what's with me and my book of goals. I've been writing this book of goals ever since earlier last year or the ending of the year before. Initially, it was only for my sharing but due to unforeseen circumstances now I have to rewrite the everything into a new book. New start I must say. I use to bring the book everywhere, so whatever that comes up into my mind. I will quickly write it down. This is exactly what it looks like: 

Sometimes I will just write motivational tips. Anyhoo, the other day I watched this one episode from Phineas and Ferb and how they were engaging in Pyramid Sports and it got me thinking how can people are able to do........

THIS,

OR THIS!!!

 Crazy. You know what's crazier?

I would like to ask what kind of make up you are using, homegirl?

THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

But I applaud them for their strength and courage in engaging a strenuous sport. I can't even stay afloat, what more this right?

At days when the end of the rope is frayed yet I have that ounce of hope garnered in me to keep on holding tight, got me thinking. 

"When is enough, really enough?"

How do you actually tell when enough is actually enough? How can you tell if it's worth the go or it isn't? Does it based on how much you can take it despite knowing the fact that the probability of a good outcome don't actually exist? You know the situation is already messed up, yet you still have faith that it's going to turn out fine. 

"So how do you save yourselves, first?"

How do you actually save yourself before the hurt comes along it's way? How do you stop perseverance? Questions I have asked myself too many times. I always believe of the greater good. I always believe that people need the chances to change for his or her better so we should always continue to wait, persevere and support. I used to believe that. I use to give tons of chances for a person to change his or her ways, fervently hoping that there's still hope left in their hearts to become better. But change doesn't come overnight. So I had to believe again that it takes time, a month passed, three or four, soon a year or then two years or more. And that hope dies a little every time promises are made. Because promises break. So what's a promise if it's meaning is futile as it is? So to those whose hearts are bigger than the world could ever take, I admire you. I admire you for all the times that you see only the good out of people when you had the chance to walk away knowing that this won't go anywhere. Yet you stay and when everything just flopped, you don't really blame the other party as much as you blame yourselves.... what a big heart you have there.

But, obviously you know. You can't shy away from the truth. The truth that sometimes you can't hold that rope too tightly with its frayed end. Because once it snaps, there's no turning back.

So..... out of boredom the other day. I mean at 1 plus in the morning. Look who decided to look for food hacks. So how did it turned out? TIRING! I waited for half an hour to cook, I don't think it was even fully cooked by then. 90%? The texture was something I have never experienced before. It looked like those fake food displays outside a ramen stall. LOLOLOL! So people, homegirl here suggest you to cook using a stove. Wanted to cook some sort of turkey bacon and then I realised I actually don't have any frozen food in my fridge. Sucks! I used to remove the orange from its peel and crack an egg in there and cooked in on the stove. Which didnt go well. HAHAHAHAHHA! Me and my antics like seriously.

Well, this is particularly a hotel hack which I came across. It reminded when Shereen and I cooked mac and cheese in a water boiler and it turned out nasty. I got my inspiration from......

Who else if it isn't Natalie Tran!! Watched her ever since 2010. Thanks Delly for introducing me to her! Love love x

til next post, yea? x

Ask me anything?

It's another day for another post because I am bored. HAHAHAHA! Basically, I went to the polyclinic today as I wanted to undergo an earwax removal operation. "OPERATION" I paid a visit to the polyclinic two weeks ago and they gave me this olive oil medication that I must apply into my ears. 5 drops/day. Well that is not exactly the point now, I went to polyclinic around 12 plus and my appointment was scheduled at 3:10pm. I went home and made my way to polyclinic again at 2:45pm. Waited for the doctor, went inside the room. Got my ear checked, and he said I have to come back two weeks later because the ear wax has not softened yet. NAH UH GIRLLLLLLLLLFFFFFFFRRRIENNNND, you don't tell me that I have to come back two weeks after. It was not even 5 mins and I already got out of the room and made payment of $14(which I can buy a 4fingers set meal mind you). #chickenislife Not only that, 5/drops per day became 15/drops per day so layannnnn.

Now, I would like to tell you something about me, but you would know by now that women are the most beautiful creatures on earth(apart from Hugh Jackman because he is beautiful too*wink*) There is this one certain group of women I really admire which are BLASIANS!

No, I am not senget. I just noticed that these group of women are really really beautiful. So what is blasian basically? Black + Asian. So what I am going to share with you are some of the most beautiful blasians I have come across.

I wish I was blasian LOLOLOLOLOL

https://ask.fm/qxnsllh

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LONG WINDED BUT WORTHY TO READ.

Cheers to a second proper post? Maybe.... 

I think it's true when they say that late night thoughts are full of unfulfilled questions that have not been answered. I think I might have a little more to say in this blog post maybe because it's late night and my mind is running like cray cray.

I have noticed that I have been pretty preoccupied with nothing. With nothing at the moment. It's pretty ironic that when the school's semester starts, I am begging for the holidays and when the holidays are here. I am practically clueless. Clueless of the things I should do. The things I want to do bc I am broke. 

"GET A JOB, SYIQIN!"

Yada yada yada, as if I did not make a single ounce of effort to find one. I have been sending out resumes and I did not get a reply. It is okay. It is not my rezeki. And when I do have a job, my parents will emphasize on the importance on focusing in school and they can tanggung for my needs. NO. It's nice to hear they care, yes of course. Alhamdullilah. But there will always be a tinge of guilt that you are now at the point in your life that you need to hustle hard. Thanks, Beyonce.

I am wandering aimlessly, only ambitions so active in mind but not really physical about it. SHEESH.

I am pretty sure if you are reading this, you don't really know me quite well. You may be close to me, or I am just an acquaintance to you. A follower or a following, perhaps? Or maybe someone you've heard about last two days ago from a friend of a friend of a friend through a whatsapp message. HAHAHHA its okay, but hello to any of you who are reading. I hope you guys are doing foineeeeee. 

"Everyone may face the same challenges. But the reaction towards it might be a different for each individual. Yet, maybe not all challenges are the same."

Quoted by me, lol. You know at times you thought you know who you are but you don't. But then you will think about it again that it's rather stupid if you don't know who you are because basically, you know yourself best kan? We are just confuse human beings. We are thrown into hurdles and hurdles a day after another. So it's okay to feel confuse sometimes. That's part of growing up and getting to know yourself. We keep on changing, bc apeeeee ppl? Change is constant. I promise you. Tu i can promise you.

But what I've learnt about myself these past few years is, I am a person who accept things rather.... quite easily. Most of the times. I could not say everytime but yet, most of the time. Acceptance. Accept that things can go uncertain. Acceptance, accept that things DONT.GO.OUR.WAY. I guess maybe a person I was before didn't accept change so quickly. And these changes KEEPS ON HAPPENING to a point until you will be like. YOU KNOW WHAT GIRLLLLLFRIEEENNNDDDD..... I ain't gonna sulk about it anymore. Be upset and disappointed or hurt or angry about it because you can. Because you have feelings. Just learn to control it. Be upset, but remember to move on from there. Redha might be a word to explain my situation. I am unsure if I have grown tired and succumbed myself to the situation, but I will get right back on track. People often ask me how I am able to move forward rather easily? I am quite surprise myself. Then, I would be telling them that why.... Why would you want to tire yourself and possess negative thoughts over something that is....temporary. Some people may take just days or months or even years to forget something or move on from something. A passing of someone, a heartbreak or a dying dream.

Like I have mentioned, every individual handles a situation differently. Even though you felt like, "Dang, I have went through this before but I felt okay with the problem so why he/she is making a fuss over a small matter?" NO! that isn't a nice thing to say or even think about it. You shouldn't compare on how your period of mourn differs from others. It may be a trivial matter but everyone leads their lives differently and if you only see from your point of perspective, that's just selfish. All you have to do is support the victim. Give him/her the love and support that they need to be able to accept things and move forward from there. Don't ever compare because all of us handle things differently.

And to answer the question of some people on how I could move on from a situation rather quick, is maybe I have experienced the same situation before. Too many times. If the issue was a whole new thing I've experienced, would it be more logical that I would take a longer time to process? Only then I could proceed to go on with my life and continue watching 9gag and debate over hamsters are actually much cuter than guinea pigs like seriously!! Don't you think so? Or the fact that waffles taste so much better with ice cream in comparison to pancakes.............................

So, the message I am trying to convey is be tactful of one's feelings. Always have good intentions of people. Like how this person isn't nice to you but you still have the belief that everyone is not born evil. You just have to find the light in the tunnel sometimes, or that piece of M&M that fell from your hands due to poor aim to put food in your mouth and it fell on the carpet... last two weeks.

Just imagine if Tupac was alive now. What would he say? I wonder what would he say if I told him Im deaf on the left ear. He would tell me to go to sleep because I am having a ear wax extraction tomorrow and I better get to polyclinic asap cos I always procrastinate. Miss you Tupac. I hope the rumours about you still being well and alive in Cuba is true.

Goodnight,  x.

Well...wellllll..well...

Hello everyone! Remembered when I said I wanted to blog something after midnight.....it obviously didn't happen. *smh* Here I am writing aimlessly when I have a 3000 word report to do due this Sunday in hard copy. 

H A R D C O P Y.

You should probably know that I am deaf at one side of ear, my left ear, not literally deaf. But I could not hear properly for two weeks. More than two weeks!! I think I got to use to it but it's so frustrating that I hear things wrongly. Thanks to swimming. I had not swum for years now and when I finally did, I decided to go deaf. #storyofmylife I am just glad that I didn't go deaf on the right ear too.

So what has happened for the past few months or weeks or since the start of 2017. Let me see, I cut my hair short, cut ties with some people...or maybe just one, tried to go longer nails, had a pet fish for a span of one month but it died.... sorry Shaniqua. Grew plants, but also died. Anything that I touches, dies............ Calculated the crazy amount of money I spent on grab/uber, joined an Astronomy CCA, tried to whistle register(meaning try to hit the whistle notes like how Mariah Carey and Ariana Grande do it), make balloon swords, bake a cake, bake cookies, tied neon sticks onto my room fan and watch the lights flicker, tried to do the 30 day squat challenge but came to a halt on day 3 bc there's no good excuse I can give actually. I don't remember everything but yup, there you have it so far. I bought two vanilla ice creams for myself. Since the holidays are here, I can start to do my DIY projects that Ive been wanting to do...............

THERE'S A POLL BESIDE IF YOU WANT TO TRY! HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHHE.

goodnight, x