Oh Allah.

Is it going to be the end of times? Astagfirullah. As much as I don't want to think about it. But why do I feel this way? As year after year passes, more and more tragedies and crisis are happening around the world. Some of the technologies are quite incredible I must say, but some are far too much. I have loss a lot of my innocent brothers and sisters in the world. Please grant them a place in Jannah. Amin.

What am I suppose to do? How can I help? I feel useless staring at the television screen. There's another side of the world in great suffering. I'm under a roof, with food to eat. Living in one of the most affluent countries with a high standard of living and life expectancy. What is it in for me? I am grateful. Oh yes. But if I am comfortable in dunya, is it unlikely so in the hereafter?

I seek more knowledge, Ya Allah. Show me. What can I do to help, to make this world a better place.

From political issues to environmental ones. Could I even live to see 20 more years?

I pray that this world will be a better place. But this dunya isn't fit for us. It isn't a place for us.

I woke up from my afternoon nap, to the feeling of great miss. Woke up feeling I should be out now with anyone, exploring or doing something meaningful. Then it came to the realisation of the emptiness I have. Do I even have friends to begin with? It's not that I've done anything wrong that I don't deserve any but it's my lack of social skills to be able to make new friends or forged a closer relationship.

The closest friend I know was admitted to the hospital for a week and so. And she's so close to me. When she was there to stay for a while, I didn't had a chance to go out with anyone.

I feel so empty now. I see that a lot of other people has a group of friends that they are close with and constantly in contact with. Is it I am jobless, that's why I lack of in there? My introvert personality had me to blame all this while?

Maybe this is a reminder, all I truly need is Allah.

 OK asar pukul 16:18 and aku masih belum solat zuhur masih nk bbl psl empty empty ni sume. OK Chao. Lol)