Oh Allah.

When Im being reminded of you, is the most beautiful feeling ever. Days have been busy, dunya had make me a busy person. Even so, whenever I hear stories of Nabi Muhammad SAW or how beautiful Islam is, you make my heart full. Full of content, full of gratefulness. I know my wrong doings, I know my flaws. I know I am no where near a perfect Muslim. Yet, Masha Allah, the knowledge I received about Islam, makes me want to be a better person.

Ya Allah, thank you for opening my heart. I love to seek for You. You make me happy. Bless me, Ya Allah. Bless me with good health so I can live longer and grow old gracefully. With a inquisitive mind set, so I can gather knowledge from around the world.

Ya Allah, I feel in awe of this world that you have created even if this world is made to break humankind. Through all the adversities and triumphs, we can see the beauty in between the cracks.

Oh Allah, I can't thank you enough.

Please make me a better Muslimah. Amin.

Today is Nyai's 70th Birthday. Alhamdullilah. Semoga Allah panjangkan umur and murahkan rezeki nyai. Amin Amin amin robbal alamin. It has been months since I last visited nyai. Could not find the time to do so because whenever I want to, my body is lethargic from school. The copious amount of revision and thoughts of doing well for the EOY exam left me dry and dead, figuratively. It's no excuse of course. But I promised her that I'll visit her often after I am finish with exams.
I miss her and yai so so much. Nyai is soft spoken now, with few words to say. Not as focus as before. I teared a while looking at her just now. Imagining the worst, would if I lose her someday. I promise nyai and yai that I will do well. Have a successful career and always be generous to people around you. In Shaa Allah.