Wednesday 26 July 2017

thinkin' bout...

I feel really grateful for being alive, and getting to go through another day. I don't know what's up with my thoughts these few days or it's just my period coming?? I don't know what i is but I am starting to feel like I am so ignorant about my feelings. I brush things off so easily, I tend to go with the flow like hella lot. "going with the flow" with my life decisions or whatsoever is not even good to start with. Well, I read an article about it. I thought it was a good phrase but it actually isn't.

Here's why "going with the flow" is never a good thing. If you luck out and achieve your goal, you'll have no idea how to achieve it again. And if you don't achieve your goal, you won't be able to learn from your mistakes when you try again (cause you should always try again). Yes, with a game plan you still may fail "“  hugely, colossally fail that will curl you up in the fetal position for days. But at least you'll be able to see where you went wrong and where you went right. A plan eliminates the guesswork "“ and guesswork is what all "going with the flow" really is. 

In fact, let's just be honest with others and, more importantly, with ourselves. Instead of trying to fake casualness with saying, "You know, I'm just going with the flow," let's just say, "I have no idea what I am doing because I have totally thought none of this out but am just hoping for the best." Yeah, it's wordier. But at least it's honest.

So that's just one of the reasons why going with the flow isn't quite lovely as you think. Why am I so nonchalant about my feelings or thoughts? I always find my problems are way smaller than others who faced tougher situations than I do. Maybe because I have always been a listening ear to people's problems that I've seen mine as nothing. But what if my problem is actually something that has to do with myself but... damn i think a lot.


The holidays are coming up and I have decided to go to Perth for my solo trip. Sorry to those who took their time to vote on my poll hahaha but I really appreciate it. Maybe I should just pack my bags, and run away. Fake my death and make a new name for myself. Go to a tanning salon and permanently tan myself so I can look blasian (tk habes habes.) Change my name to Shaniqua, take some singing classes, go to Hollywood, rap a few verses, got into Bad Boy Entertainment, collaborate with Calvin Harris, be best friends with Karrueche, get to know Rihanna is my far relative, open a pretzel shop that sells laksa flavored pretzels, get rich, help the community, actually win a golf competition and put Tiger Woods out of business and............. im starting to realise nothing i say makes sense cos it has nothing to do with Perth.

YOU KNOW WHAT. I KNOW WHAT MY GOAL IN LIFE IS. IS TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING SO GREAT THAT A STATUE IS MADE FOR ME. PUT AT SOME MONUMENT. YES. THAT'S A GOAL IN LIFE.


I think by now, people should know how much I love children. The ones that are still infants btw hahahah but I got some mixed reactions for some people who have gotten to know that I want to have seven children. I mean it's a lot i know but i always want to feel how it's like to have a big family you know.

I should be sleeping now. BYE

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